For a moment I allowed myself to slip away into a transient state where everyone dreams of being the person they always dreamed of, or perhaps having the things that they always desired. I allowed myself to become “that girl” that I so loathed and despised since my youth. I became the girl they call “jealous” and “envious” of what another person possessed.
I sat at the computer, surfing the blogs and websites of young entrepreneurs who had started their own companies and who seemingly had attained success. From starting jewelry lines to speaking companies, everything that I love to do they were doing, and doing it well. Let me make this clear, I was not wishing for them to fail or hoping something negative would happen to these entrepreneurs… I was just simply saddened, out of immaturity, by the fact I wanted to start my own business and couldn’t; I envied them for doing what I only dreamed.
You must understand, ever since I was a child I had the biggest entrepreneurial dreams that far surpassed my tiny little frame. I dreamed of becoming my own boss and until this day that dream has never died. (This year I started my own business, but it’s been years in the making…)
The truth is… it’s been in the making because I had some character issues that needed to be addressed; my business mindset was absolutely horrible. I had the “I’ll step on whoever I have to just to get to the top type attitude”—and God would not allow me to conduct business to His people like that; the doors just were not opening for me.
Right now, business opportunities are coming my way!! I’m so excited about the doors being opened. Like the old saying goes, “Talent will take you to the top, but character will keep you there.” There are huge moral responsibilities when you own a company and are pushed in the public eye.
A lot of people become envious and jealous over other’s possessions, secretly desiring to be just like them, but do you really know what it took for them to get there? Were you there when they almost went bankrupt just to see the vision come alive? Or perhaps the many long, hard sleepless nights they endured? No, of course you didn’t see that, you only get to see the fruits of their hard labor.
At the end of the day I realize that jealousy doesn’t look good on me, and neither does it on anyone else. You have to love what you got and where you’re at in life. You may not be exactly where you desire, but maybe there’s an absolute reason why you haven’t arrived at your “perfect destination.” (And that may be in the form of relationships, business, career, financial situations, etc.).
Endure patiently, work on character and integrity, learn your lessons, and then move on to greatness.
Let’s grow together